When You're Outside Looking In

So I've been a very busy girl the last two days, and that's a good thing. I could bore youwith stories about how I've got new roses in my garden or how I had a great talk with Kitten's mom last night....but I was going through my old blog today looking for something and I came across this old meme. I was thinking about meme's anyway because I was on the I Have Ordinary Addictions Blog and there was one on there. Since some of my answers have changed, and I don't have any of yours, I thought it might be fun.

I'm posting mine here...you post yours in the comments. That will be fun, right?

1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?

I don't think there is such a thing. But I think you can get close. To do that, I think you have to love yourself. You have to know where you're going and be content with that. You have to be able to both give and accept love freely. I think that's as happy as any person can be, and I don't think perfection has anything to do with being happy.

2. What is your greatest fear?

Honestly? Losing Kitten. She's everything to me. She really is. Outside of that fear, I think this hasn't changed for me. I'm terrified of losing soemone I love without being able to tell them that.

3. What trait do you most deplore in yourself?

My vanity. Especially because I am a relatively self-concious person. I think being both of those things makes me insufferable sometimes. I also think it makes me much harder on myself than I ought to be.

4. What historical figure do you most identify with?

Truly, I have no idea. There's a lot of historical figures I love and admire, but I don't know there's one where I feel like my life mirrors thiers.

5. What is your greatest extravagance?

I have two- eating out (because I'm lazy about cooking sometimes) and underwear. I refuse to wear anything that isn't costly and comfortable.

6. What is your favorite journey?

I think my trip to Florida and back with Kitten has to rank up there for actual traveling. It was one of the most special times in my life. As far as personal journeys go, I think my journey this last year to overcome my anger issues has been the best for me. I've discovered a lot about myself and I think its made me a lot happier about my life.

7. What do you like most about your appearance?

Well, I'm the most vain about my hair, but probably my tattoos. They're the part of me I've chosen for myself, rather than been born with.

8. What living person do you most despise?

There's some people out there I seriously don't like. I'm not a fan of Kitten's ex. I am obviously not a fan of BBD, but I think I'm big enough to not hate them. I think I rather despise, in general, any person who is selfish enough to think they know better than anyone else how to run the world. That sort of hubris always rankles with me.

9. What is your greatest regret?

I don't have one. Truly. I would never go back and change a part of my life, because I feel like it makes me who I am. I love who I am now, and I couldn't be that if I removed any choice I've made in the past. I've made some seriously bad decisions, but fortunately, I'm able to live with all of them.

10. When or where are you most happy?

When I'm with the people I love.

11. Wha is your current state of mind?

At this exact second I'm feeling content and reflective. Recently, I've felt a little overwhelmed emotionally, a little frustrated, and more than a little frightened. I'm dealing with it. Thank god and goddess I have good friends and two wonderful partners to get me through it.

12. If you could change one thing about yourself what would you change?

I wouldn't have migraines. Hands down. My life would be much better.

13. What is your greatest acheivement?

Sobering up. Finding that I had the strength to respect myself enough to want to be sober is a feat that changed my life and who I am for the better, and permanantly.

14. What is your most treasured possession?

I have three: my wedding ring, a scarf that belonged to my grandfather, a quilt that my great grandmother made for me the year she died.

15. What do you regard as the lowest deapths of misery?

Being unable to help someone you love. Helplessness is the worst feeling in the world. Especially for me, because I'm a control freak.

16. Where would you like to live?

Portland, Oregon. But you knew that, right?

17. What is your most marked characteristic?

Physically? Probably my fangs. Personality wise? I'm pushy. And I have no filter whatsoever. I'm really, really blunt.

18. What quality do you like most in a man?

Compassion

19. What quality do you like most in a woman?

Honesty.

20. Who are your favorite writers?

That's a revolving door. Check my profile for my perrenial favorites. Currently I'm really digging Erin Hunter.

21. Who is your real life hero?

My grandfather.

22. What is your personal motto?

You receive what you give to others. Harm no one. Live life fully, love others completely, approach life with laughter.


Alright. Did you learn anything? Now its your turn. Go. I've got annonymous comments on for a reason, my lurking lovelies.

AGxx